眼光

活在他眼光的影子里

笨蛋

做么要这样难受呢

咯

再干嘛

哈咯

不懂以后会怎样呢

就不懂啊

起床时想多多

昨晚发了一个梦

梦里的男朋友说了善意的谎言来保护一个女生

心痛呢

我在想我应该生气吗

我应该怎样告诉他呢

我在意呢

这梦很熟

好像在现实中发生过

我起床时

恩

想起昨晚的经节

Roman5:18 Against all hope, Abraham in hope believed.....

我会选择把我的感受告诉他

然后改变的工作交给神做

抱着神所给的希望相信

保护别人是好的

也许神会改变我的想法

让我慢慢的大方

学会接受

Stupid Esther

I dont know how to chase back what is happening

I hate the people break promise

I hate it...sorry, my best friend

In stead of release it, i dont know what i can do

When u let me wait then change the plan

i really hate this kind of feeling

It let me think back

How was i wait sha sha in front of my house for my father

then he 5 minutes never be 5 minutes

Each time i count the clock

After that my dad worked in Japan

Then wait him 5 years to back to ours house

then i know that waiting for me is a stupid thing make me suffer I hate wait and promise

I admit that i hate u just now

God, how am I deal wif this

Even some times, I also will doubt on u....

你爱永不变~~help me to believe it

My Mr Right

I like a guy recently

I have some kind of feeling towards the guy

When I meet with him i felt a bit nervous and try to talk more to him

i am 21 years old

That is a right for me to think about Mr Right^^

I accept esther wan yee lau to have the feeling

But what i learn through last relationship is

do not try to depend on esther's own understanding

That He will provide

Wair patiently and rest patiently in Him

He is your provider

I no mean that i not need to do anything

But keep on to the things that i need to do

I need to change on the channel i should focus on

Is the guy i admire or The Provider that love me more than anyone

That is no wrong for me to like him

That is no wrong for me to concern him

Still can be friend

Just like normal

Can take action like try to know more about him

But one thing that i should stop is mention his name over and over time in front of my friend

The reasons that i should stop are That is no point for me to do that

Once I said I am proclaiming

But I am waiting the best one from God

That is choosen by God

Not Me

The choosen one will be channel of blessing towards my family, my ethnic and my nation

That is more thing can be done through us by the power of almighty one

Ya, when i mentioned him i am excited

but it are not fair for me to get joke from the guy

What a love will be if continue to get sanctification from others

I should respect to the guy

I pray in the name of Jesus accompany me to go through this process

When i am missing him, accompany me to go through, accompany me to learn through

When i am over excited, accompany me to enjoy it

When i am grieved, i always be reminder u are beside me and care about me

God, i pray to grow th another level of my spiritual life

My Mr Right

God u are in the central of ours life

The faith that i should have is no from a man but is from God

I want be lovely to love my Mr Right

I want be caring to care my Mr Right

I want be responsible to take care of Mr Right

I want be the weak enough and surrender to God help

if I found that i want to take granted from Mr Right

that is not Him

Assignment..ing

Esther wanyee lau would like to start crisis management assignment loooo..

I like this subject

^^

Woohoo....

That is good

I am struggling

I am wondering what i should do right now

I am last minuting do my assignment

The assignment need to consists 20 pages until 30 pages

I cannot feel peace

Is it stress

Can I handle it in a more good way?

I want to shout it out out out out out....

I try very hard to run away from the assignment

Run anywhere the feeling also following me

I go church, I said that i want to seek God, I yam chaing, I relaxing my self, I ate durian, Think to go to Mcdonal...Bla bla bla bla....

I wonder tat how i can sit i front of my "xiao qing" typing my assignment for whole day?

I scare to confront wif the assignment, keep on run run run

but the scare, insecure be still,,,following me

I sit down, i pray to God, help me, teach me...God, peace please come

A voice keep on tell me condemn me for y last minute, c wat u have done in last two days

There is nothing u have done

How bad u r...Esther wanyee lau

But there is no condemnation in His Kingdom

I am no try to take granted for the Word of God

But this is really the best verse that i can think out

then stop condemnation and repent

and start to do my assignment

Come back my passionate, welcome back

strike to be the best

God, i really know tat U so love me

i will be bold through this , right^^

Dont be so stress

Esther..God is wif u,,always