剪头发

今天剪了一个新发型

我还蛮喜欢

突然

最近有特地让自己很忙

好想静静休息

但很快的就约了朋友明天去跑步

又是时候好好成长了

Happy Birthday

亲爱的朋友

生日快乐

终于录了别人的祝福语

还好有呖呖和秀秀的帮忙

这是我们大学最后一年的生日

所以就下定决心

送了给你

你一定会喜欢

眼光

活在他眼光的影子里

笨蛋

做么要这样难受呢

咯

再干嘛

哈咯

不懂以后会怎样呢

就不懂啊

起床时想多多

昨晚发了一个梦

梦里的男朋友说了善意的谎言来保护一个女生

心痛呢

我在想我应该生气吗

我应该怎样告诉他呢

我在意呢

这梦很熟

好像在现实中发生过

我起床时

恩

想起昨晚的经节

Roman5:18 Against all hope, Abraham in hope believed.....

我会选择把我的感受告诉他

然后改变的工作交给神做

抱着神所给的希望相信

保护别人是好的

也许神会改变我的想法

让我慢慢的大方

学会接受

Stupid Esther

I dont know how to chase back what is happening

I hate the people break promise

I hate it...sorry, my best friend

In stead of release it, i dont know what i can do

When u let me wait then change the plan

i really hate this kind of feeling

It let me think back

How was i wait sha sha in front of my house for my father

then he 5 minutes never be 5 minutes

Each time i count the clock

After that my dad worked in Japan

Then wait him 5 years to back to ours house

then i know that waiting for me is a stupid thing make me suffer I hate wait and promise

I admit that i hate u just now

God, how am I deal wif this

Even some times, I also will doubt on u....

你爱永不变~~help me to believe it

My Mr Right

I like a guy recently

I have some kind of feeling towards the guy

When I meet with him i felt a bit nervous and try to talk more to him

i am 21 years old

That is a right for me to think about Mr Right^^

I accept esther wan yee lau to have the feeling

But what i learn through last relationship is

do not try to depend on esther's own understanding

That He will provide

Wair patiently and rest patiently in Him

He is your provider

I no mean that i not need to do anything

But keep on to the things that i need to do

I need to change on the channel i should focus on

Is the guy i admire or The Provider that love me more than anyone

That is no wrong for me to like him

That is no wrong for me to concern him

Still can be friend

Just like normal

Can take action like try to know more about him

But one thing that i should stop is mention his name over and over time in front of my friend

The reasons that i should stop are That is no point for me to do that

Once I said I am proclaiming

But I am waiting the best one from God

That is choosen by God

Not Me

The choosen one will be channel of blessing towards my family, my ethnic and my nation

That is more thing can be done through us by the power of almighty one

Ya, when i mentioned him i am excited

but it are not fair for me to get joke from the guy

What a love will be if continue to get sanctification from others

I should respect to the guy

I pray in the name of Jesus accompany me to go through this process

When i am missing him, accompany me to go through, accompany me to learn through

When i am over excited, accompany me to enjoy it

When i am grieved, i always be reminder u are beside me and care about me

God, i pray to grow th another level of my spiritual life

My Mr Right

God u are in the central of ours life

The faith that i should have is no from a man but is from God

I want be lovely to love my Mr Right

I want be caring to care my Mr Right

I want be responsible to take care of Mr Right

I want be the weak enough and surrender to God help

if I found that i want to take granted from Mr Right

that is not Him

Assignment..ing

Esther wanyee lau would like to start crisis management assignment loooo..

I like this subject

^^

Woohoo....

That is good

I am struggling

I am wondering what i should do right now

I am last minuting do my assignment

The assignment need to consists 20 pages until 30 pages

I cannot feel peace

Is it stress

Can I handle it in a more good way?

I want to shout it out out out out out....

I try very hard to run away from the assignment

Run anywhere the feeling also following me

I go church, I said that i want to seek God, I yam chaing, I relaxing my self, I ate durian, Think to go to Mcdonal...Bla bla bla bla....

I wonder tat how i can sit i front of my "xiao qing" typing my assignment for whole day?

I scare to confront wif the assignment, keep on run run run

but the scare, insecure be still,,,following me

I sit down, i pray to God, help me, teach me...God, peace please come

A voice keep on tell me condemn me for y last minute, c wat u have done in last two days

There is nothing u have done

How bad u r...Esther wanyee lau

But there is no condemnation in His Kingdom

I am no try to take granted for the Word of God

But this is really the best verse that i can think out

then stop condemnation and repent

and start to do my assignment

Come back my passionate, welcome back

strike to be the best

God, i really know tat U so love me

i will be bold through this , right^^

Dont be so stress

Esther..God is wif u,,always

Love Letter

Love is patient

Love is Kind

It doesnt envy

.....

I seek Love

but no love from anybody else

But from Him

His love can be creative

His love can be almighty

His love can be straight

His love can be understandably by human

His love can be through ppl around me

His love can be wordless

He can be lovely

He sure will be lovely

Hurt will hold me back

If without His love

Praise Him ...

Wonderful Time wif Him and Pastor Edmund Smith

Today Pastor Edmund Smith came to Hope Kampar

That really is a wonderful time for us

The topic is "My friend With his boyfriend"

He preach to us John 8:10

The adultery sins same with cheating(consider sin)

There is no judgement or measurement of sins by people

Once committed in any little or big sin is a sins

each of us are sinner, sure that is included u who is reading and me

But good new, great new, almighty new is Jesus already died for u & mine sins

and after 3 days He rose again

We no longer to be condemned by the sin we had before

Stole, cheat, adultery, abortion, homosexual, euthanasia, hurt others

that will be forgiven by Him

We are saved by His crucified (put on cross)

Then what we need to do are repent and sin no more

Then let His love as a spring well in ours life.

There is not fault for they to be homo

sometimes there is no choice for them

sometimes happens which are out of control

If they can choose, they will not make tis choice again

What should we do?

As a friend, we always accept them

who can judge what is wrong and correct

how to measure

how to judge

Who are us to judge others

Still remember the first love

are u perfect enough for him to accept u

Are u holy enough? Are u the one that worth to be saved?

Are u???

but He still love u even though u not worth, right?

So, y not v accept them?

(part 1)

情绪化

这时候的我

做么这样情绪化的？

做么呢？

Being

我们的庆祝会里

牧师向我们说到

being

Instead of doing， need being first

和我的标题很像

对哦，我想看圣经里说的应许之地

今天的洗礼，有六个人

我喜欢今天的犹豫

因为当我想要不要的时候

我更清楚自己要什么

3rd Anniversary

我现在希望的是心里

全新的感觉

我希望每天

就如第一次见您

的那些感觉

重新的体验您

不再专注

我得到什么

失去什么

但是就是专注在您

住进我心里

每一分每一秒

的思念您

过去的想法

朋友

对不起

用过去的想法

来想你

这是一种对你的不尊重

不公平

对不起

希望

有着那些的突破

不再这样伤你的心

一切重新

天父

在这一方面

帮助我

谢谢

今天

我决定了不再见你

那些机会不需要再给

因为我不需要制造机会

打扰我现在的生活

我的注意力

不再是你

这个选择离开我的你

我不再需要这些犹豫

你的生活

我的生活

不需要

互相理会

最好是

北极

南极

没有交集的距离

红绿灯

今天在红绿灯

你的车在对面

很巧

在金宝

我不懂得要如何反应

我在想会不会有其他人

在里面

就算有又怎样?

我的脑我的心

乱掉

你的存在

你的消失

喔

我的注意力

是这些吗？

我知道

无论我现在多难受

您都看在眼里

我什么也不想做

只需要

小心的做好每一个

决定

我不晓得

最后的结局是什么

我只知道

您正在准备最好的

我的心

今天
我的心
一直重复着
“转变”
我不懂是什么
但是
我感觉
是好的
这是我一直以来
渴望的
我总是
有这样的感觉
他正在准备
所有发生的事
都在被预备着
但是可以肯定的是
所被预备的~~都会是好的
可能暂时看不到
但是
心理却有着那些
平安及喜悦
感谢您

问题

不要再问我

为什么每天都打扮

不要再问我

还爱他吗？

不要再问我

过得好吗

我还是一样会回答

一样的答案

因为我爱美

因为我知道更美好的会出现

因为我对您有信心

我的一颗心

今天

我们有crisis Management de presentation

我喜欢这一科

我喜欢实实在在的

学习

我们一直不断不断

的练习

而且

当我们全心投入的时候

会有好多的新点子

例如

timeline

planning

至少我们

进步了哦

提早的完成

哈哈

满足

今天我们有呈现

我好紧张

不过我觉得

有突破叻

至少有做全面的准备

开心蕾

投入~~~~一百巴仙~~~~

我的功课

我的一颗心

正在做功课

我想写给您看

您的“地位”在功课之上

有人说

您是成功

与您同在

就是与成功

同在

今天我一直在思念你

原本紧张的我

静下心来

在讲堂里唱出

Into ur Present I come to Pray.....

平安与我同在

我知道

一切的知识

都在您之下

我的脑袋

想起我想要的爱情

想起您

我知道您正在为我预备

我只要

耐心的聆听

您的声音

我今天觉得我不行了

脑袋就快暴了

听到您说

在我这里休息吧

我跑进了厕所

关上眼睛

唱着

In Christ Alone, I place my trust.....

我们一起回忆

joseph在羊群中worship您

与您同在

回到书桌时

看到乱乱的桌子

也感受到

与您同在

is able.......

艾，我爱您。。

叛逆

我有在问自己我是不是很叛逆

这个问题我也不懂怎样回答

我只是不愿意那么容易屈服

当我看不到价值时

我会选择离开

我的原因是我要避免

我大脑里的打架

如果我留下

我的脑细胞会很大的动量

这个就是我

因为

我相信

如果祂要我留下

不管我怎么逃

还是会回来

面对

只是

时间还没到

嘿

还是我

当我们同在一起

感谢您与我同在

那时每一分，每一秒的爱情

每一丝，每一毫的爱意都能体会

感谢您

无时无刻的与我对话

感谢您

让我的蜕变

感谢您让我的成功

全都因为选择了与您同在

因为有您

一切不一样

调频台

我喜欢这个名字

因为我爱调~~

有一个频台是叫做爱的频台

是祂的频台

我爱留意我的意识在想些什么

我爱留意到底这意识里是否正在走上我的理想

这是我的爱好

有时候我收不到

但是只要静下来

调整调整一下

又回到了

真的很快

^^

我要回冷甲了

今天我会踏巴士回

我会经过

我是很想念

我是爱过

也被伤害过

姓杨的！！！

你真的很王八蛋

狗屁狗屁！！！！

但是一切都过去咯

所以

要用另外一种方式来告诉自己

面对现实吧

他已经离开了哦

而且

当婉仪把这大石头交托給祂了

就不用讨价还价的把大石头

顶在自己的路上

也不用拥抱这种感觉走下去

enjoy+ing

面膜面膜脸亮晶晶~~

在敷着这面膜。。。

好享受哦

这是我开心的事

顾全大局

有时候觉得好好笑

因为别人的一个表情，或几句话

就觉得人家不爽你

come on~真的有那么重要吗？

我们都二十一二岁了

要的是什么还不知道吗？

还要玩不爽来不爽去的游戏吗？

在我们的面前是一场一场精彩的过程

用心的经过

会很爽~woohoo

头脑

他最新的女主角是谁呢？

我昨想右想

上想下想

想来想去都不知道

我是不是他人生中“落选的影后”

头脑脑脑脑-----------振作起来--------BIBIBI------

除了金马奖~还有其他（暂时想不到有什么）

所以~~~~~~

为下一个奖欢呼____woohoooooooo~

Anna的故事

刚从我的房友口中听到她的见证

很感动

一个十年来到真正见证祂

体验祂

神

那一个谷

是比喜玛拉雅山峰之间的谷

来的深吗？

就算跌下去了

伸出手来

祂的手会温柔的把你拉起

伤心还是解脱

离开你

我会不会好一点（有听过这首歌吗？）

我被刘企佑问

你会伤心吗？还是觉得是一种解脱（有一首歌也是叫“解脱”）

我不懂蕾~~~

我的心情好好复杂

我有伤心

但却在单独一个人的时候

我有解脱

当我面对我现在的生活

因为我能专心（之前会分心）的开心

婉仪的情绪

我们一起合作好吗？

我知道你有伤心

但这并不是原本的你（原本的情绪是开心）

只是在遇到了这状况

才会有这反应

情绪丫~情绪

我们一起面对这事实

他已经离开了

但是我们还要继续

找回原本的自己

我见到AlexisChean颜莞倩蕾

好特别的一个人

我被他吸引

除了帥之外

当然还有她的坦诚

我好喜欢

也赞同~成功要趁早~

因为知道今天会见到他

我几乎把她的部落客读完

（嘻嘻，我很少这么努力)

但是~

我竟然~

没有在与她吃晚餐时拍照

哇捞~我被动到

不过~~

在她要离开前

Hope Kampar‘s professional camera man (我忘记问他叫什么名）

帮我和她

用最专业的角度

帮我们合照~~

woohoo，开心到到到到

好期待那张照片哦

不对劲

我觉得我不对劲~
问我一个问题~
我都会往最坏的去想~
我不对劲~
我真得不对劲了
对很多东西都不满意
一直发脾气
想不通我到底在干吗
要睡又睡不着
我该怎么办？
谁可以救救我？

理所当然♥惊喜

那天

是在医院的最后一天
你孔斯我不要把一切当成理所当然
我不喜欢你的孔斯
但是每次的孔斯都让我清醒
你说不要把一切当成是理所当然
不过
我想说
谢谢你
当我抛弃了理所当然
惊喜就马上出现
谢谢你
杨孔权
但是我还是不赞成孔斯